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All songs written by Jeremy Porter  ©One To Give Music, BMI except where noted.

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Barrel of Tears b/w Blue Ltter Lyrics

1. Barrel of Tears
2. Blue Letter
3. Cemetery Road

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Above The Sweet Tea Line

1. Josh
2. Bottled Regrets
3. Elimination Round
4. Knocked Out Cold
5. Don't Call Me Darlin'
6. Jey Kentucky
7. Long Story
8. Sounds Like Goodbye
9. Sleepy Eyes
10. Trouble In Paradise

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Plan B b/w Throwing Stones Lyrics

1. Plan B
2. Throwing Stones

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Partner In Crime

1. Castaways
2. Little Miss Awesome
3. Wedding Day
4. Pizza Girl
5. God Damn Thing
6. What Youíre Doing Today
7. Still Waiting Here
8. Partner In Crime
9. Wandering Eye
10. Make Out King
11. Barely All The Time
12. You Owe Me A Heart

Jeremy Porter & The Tucos - Night On The Town b/w Ain't My House Anymore Lyrics

1. Night On The Town
2. Ain't My House Anymore

Jeremy Porter - Party Of One Lyrics

1. Sidewalk Ends
2. Last Time I Saw You Happy
3. Not Like You're Mine
4. Hallmark Holiday
5. Dead On Your Feet
6. When September Passed Us By
7. Out Inside
8. The Turnaround
9. Hundred Bucks


Barrel of Tears

I'm Drowning in a barrel of my tears
Adding up the price of living hard all these years
Just another painful exercise
Of just how little all my good intentions buy
C'mon little baby did I take you by surprise?

I'm rolling in a barrel of my tears
Hoping that that angry sad look disappears
This time maybe you can set aside
All the things I've done before to make you cry
All the arguments I've made that don't apply

It's not lost on me that you won't be around
I give up to easy and you never stand your ground
I don't mean to disconcert
but I guess it's too much work
It's not lost on me now

Just a sinister reaction to a constant attraction
That's pulling me away while you're begging me to stay
The sighing and the teardrops and them angry sad eyes
Please don't make this harder than all the other times
Let's skip the cheap romancing and soap opera lines

Does it keep you up at night what you should have done?
If you had it to it again would you still run?


Cemetery Road

There's a Red Roof Inn out on Cemetery Road
Where we'd meet late at night when the weather turned cold
Sometimes she was late, sometimes it was me
But we'd end up together eventually

The days would drag on and the nights would fly by
"How about tomorrow?"
"I'm not sure I'll try."
She was trying to end to our forbidden lust
With a fine sugar coating of cocaine and dust

We carried on like this for a calendar year
With late nights of plenty and next morning tears
With a lump in my throat and our cars side by side
outside of our room our worlds would collide

Cemetery Road, Cemetery Road
Polyester drapes and bathtub mold
Cemetery Road, Cemetery Road
We'd meet late at night when the weather turned cold

There's a field out back where the wind hits the trees
There's an old Cadillac by room 33
You put a sign on the door, says Do Not Disturb
You've given me more than I'll ever deserve
But we both know that dawn's soon to break
And we'll never admit to this mistake

There's a Red Roof Inn out on Cemetery Road
Where we'd meet late at night when the weather turned cold
Sometimes she was late, sometimes it was me
We'd end up alone eventually

Cemetery Road, Cemetery Road
Where the carpet's worn and the wallpaper's old
Cemetery Road, Cemetery Road
We'd meet late at night when the weather turned cold


Josh

We had a cat when I was a kid
His name was Josh and he did what he did
He loved to chase them mice and give `em hell

He was skinny and white, just like me
A little fried, all thanks to me
He had balls and swagger and a collar with a bell

But they never heard him coming and it's probably just as well
In the tall grass we could hear the death knell

Well Josh he had some friends and most of them were cats
One was Good Time Charley and one was Max

You know he outlived them all because he lived by the seat of his pants
He never gave that dog a second glance

They never heard him coming
But Josh was on the way
He'd bring home something new and dead most every day
He never had the time
For dice or drink or whores
But he'd lay that dead thing down right on my mama's floor

One day Josh got chased around a cedar tree
By a big old mean red fox, orange and white was all you'd see
Somehow he survived to fight another day
But he never really walked or acted quite the same way

One day Josh just didn't come home
Somewhere there's a field where he still roams
And he's just waiting for my mom to let him in


Bottled Regrets

Playing chicken with a blind man on the streets of Cleveland
My head is hurting so bad it's a wonder I can even walk
We managed to get this far without a major pitfall
It's a wonder how we manage to get anywhere at all

Alex would have liked you and Scurvy says he's proud
And I might have heard the sound guy if we weren't so fucking loud
They weren't exactly lining up around the block in droves
But we almost looked the part as far as anybody knows

Well who's got dibs on green coat, and who will ride in back
And who's got those drink tickets cuz that's all we're getting paid
I can't imagine giving up or what I'd tell my ma
I can't let go of the two times in my life I've been betrayed

Alex would have liked you and Scurvy says he's proud
But everything just sounds the same - you guys are too damn loud
I'll listen under protest from someone in your clothes
But we almost pulled it off as far as anybody knows

If I could bottle my regrets and sell them off to my houseguests
And just sit back and count my profits
Keep your feelings to yourself `till I've got nothing left to sell
`till I've got nothing left to sell

So I'll squeeze in somewhere sideways and just wait to be forgot
Just spanning time and getting by and tossing off the lot

Alex would have liked you and Scurvy says he's proud
And the singer for the next band is beyond a little plowed
I'll whisper in your ear from my death bead before I leave
You go and get `em tiger, if that's what you believe


Elimination Round

Somewhere in Wisconsin I lost my way
Thought as we got closer I'd Know just what to say
Somewhere between Beloit and the Illinois line
Somewhere between 6 years ago and falling behind

I caught Up old friend, we'd lost track along the way
She told me she was sorry and everything's Ok
In spite of what went down we'd head in to the night
"Let me make it up" she said, "let me make it alright"

She said "we've all got regrets that can't just can't be undone.
Slide over, let me in" - and we drove into the sun

Another chance to let me down
Elimination Round
Let's get it right this time around
Elimination Round

a short re-acquaintance and a shorter goodbye
Be back in a minute, I slipped out on the sly
Somewhere Between I loved you and let me get the drinks
I don't really care what your boyfriend's dog thinks

I told her it's been great but we're leaving after this
No one's Looking so c'mon give me a kiss

Told her that I'd Miss her but we're gone after today
We're heading towards Chicago and it's Gotta be this way


Knocked Out Cold

Always a bridesmaid, never a nurse
I should've taken the time to put you first
Now all I got is a photograph
And memories of that little laugh

Playing hard to get you're always on my mind
You said "let's make it work" I said I'd make the time
For a couple days we really had a blast
I should've known it would never last

Now you're gone, gone, gone away
If that's how you want it, ok
Now you're gone, gone, gone away
Time stood still since that day

Even in the laundry room when you held my hand
And said that I could never understand
"As time goes on it gets easier, you'll see."
But time stood still for me

Some days your smile left me knocked out cold
But I could tell that it was getting old
For a couple days we really had a blast
I should've known it would never last
Now the ink is dry and said so long
but for some damn reason I'm still holding on


Don't Call Me Darlin'

I walked in late to a real loud band
With a cigarette and drink in hand
Feeling like I damn near owned that room

And there was you under the lights
Behind the drunks and sausage fights
Actin' like you had something to do

Baby ain't it understood what we'd do now if we only could
Darlin' won't you let me take your hand?

She said: Don't call me darlin' and I'll be yours tonight
Just keep that mouth shut and hang on tight
Don't call me darlin' and we'll be alright
It's been such a bad week, a bad day and bad night

We stayed on the dance floor, movin' slow to sad songs
Everything was right but everything was wrong
Just tell me baby, please tell me where we stand
What happens when the lights come up, where do I stand

She said well there ain't much left of this tattered old heart
But just for tonight maybe you can play the part


Hey Kentucky

Hey Kentucky where you going?
The beer's all in our room
Them girls out front ain't leaving
and the morning'll be here soon

And when the sun beats through them drapes at that Motel 6 from hell
We'll say farewell

Hey Kentucky what'd you play
In that jukebox, what's that song?
You'll be headed back below that
sweet tea line before too long

"Hey Michigan, go play a couple songs of your own
Before we go"

And even if this last run of shows ain't been great
You're still doin' what you love in some other state

Hey Kentucky what's that smell
Coming from your van?
You're heading up the interstate
as steady as you can

Let's go inside and see the door guy for the dough
Let's do a shot and talk about our upcoming shows
Until we meet again at some old watering hole
We gotta roll

Hey Kentucky where you going?


Long Story

When Friday night seems normal
And you end up in a rock and roll mess
Better make that last one a double
Raise a toast to the endlessly blessed

The pay backs seem so heavy
Youíre feeling left out, alone and behind
You keep on saying youíre ready
But youíre harder and harder to find

In summer time when you change your mind
It doesnít seem to carry so much weight
So you stand in line and take your time
But youíre not starting with a brand new state

And I got all the time in the world for you to bore me
With your long story

Well I tried to tell you the best way
Was to leave well enough alone
A hundred excuses and delays
And each one overblown

From your living room you look at the moon
And you shake you head and wonder why
See what we do and you want it too
But you never wanna even try

And I got all the time in the world for you to bore me
With your long story

Itís more than just a streak of bad luck
Never ready to just give up
And I got all the time to wait for you to grow up

When youíre walking home because everyoneís gone
And you look into your neighborís garage
And you want so bad what youíve never had
But your dreams have always been so flawed


Sounds Like Goodbye

You made a pretty good fake cowboy, grasping to your youth
Did you best to make more with less `till you finally faced the truth
But I wouldnít want to walk a city block in your shitty cowboy boots

Well I was hung up on you for so long I could hardly face myself
In a bottle full of doubt and self-pityís where I fell
I might even come through or come around to say hello - I donít know

If it sounds like Iím saying goodbye
Itís because I am

It was a bad day when your cat died and your car got stuck and towed
You were feeling down and out, lookiní for a shoulder I suppose
My voice just didnít cut when in your cowboy rode - knocked me cold

If it sounds like Iím saying goodbye
Itís because I am

Let me know if itís safe to go outside and when
I never want to see that side of you again

Letís take a stock of everything we have before us now
Youíre on the clock and it meant a lot even though you disavow
Itís easier to get to sleep at night
When you finally let go - I ought to know

If it sounds like Iím saying goodbye
Itís because I am


Sleepy Eyes

Hey sleepy eyes don't make me wait
Let's go to bed it's getting late
We got lots to do tomorrow, that's for sure

There ain't no need to act grown up
There ain't no shame in looking rough
When everything's been lost you thought was pure

Sometimes you wanna just lay down
And never wake up again
Sleepy eyes lay down and count to ten
Sleepy eyes lay down and count to ten

One day you were just singing songs
The next day your whole world was gone
The answers barely hanging by a prayer

Head hung low and tail down
With darkness spreading all around
And nothing left to crawl on into there

Sometimes it feels better when
You're crying all alone
Sleepy eyes your heart ain't made of stone
Sleepy eyes your heart ain't made of stone

Eyes ain't made for cryin' and living ain't for dyin'
Sometimes you just gotta let it go

Hey sleepy eyes let's call it a day
Let's pack it up and put it away
Tomorrow's bound to be about as bad

There ain't no snakes beneath your bed
There's just some demons in your head
Sleepy eyes they'll never go away

Eyes ain't made for cryin'
And living ain't for dyin'
Sleepy eyes I see that you're in pain


Trouble In Paradise

Well I hear that there's trouble in paradise
I ain't talkin crabs or pubic lice
And I know that it won't take long
Yeah I know that it won't take long

It's not outta left field, not a big surprise
C'mon little baby let me dry them eyes
Don't stay where you don't belong
Don't stay where you don't belong

Well I'm sorry but I never knew him well
If you won't tell, then I won't tell
Let's leave him stink in his own damn smell tonight
Well alright

You don't got my name branded on your back
But the jig is up and the deck is stacked
C'mon, let's get away

Well you'll can talk him outta his own thick skin
But you're never gonna stop me from comin' on in
No way, let's leave today
Well c'mon, let's leave today


Plan B

Side steppiní your way out of this mess
Gettingí out of trouble is what you do best
Picking up the pieces and leaving the rest
Puttiní all your friends and lovers to the test

Shakiní up emotions at the parties you throw
But pretty soon youíre downing in the undertow
You got the hot potato but you wonít let go
Youíre the only one tired of the people you know

Shake it up baby
Come home to me
Youíve done enough damage
Itís time for plan B

Shake it up baby
Donít be side show
You got your point across
So címon, címon, címon letís go

Now everybodyís lookiní at what youíre gonna do
But nobody has any confidence in you
Let `em down easy, make it quick and fast
Slippiní out the bask before anyone asks

Shake it up baby
Come home to me
Youíve done enough damage
Itís time for plan B


Throwing Stones

When Iím walking down the sidewalk in your town
I donít feel down
Iím breathing in the city in the air
This could be anywhere today

You hide behind the curtain of the
Bay window in your living room
But I see the glowing of your smoke
To you this is some kind of kind of joke

Thereís nowhere else Iíd rather be today

Remember on that Friday night
When you lost it at that one red light
You left me and our dog alone
In our glass house just throwing stones

Thereís nowhere else Iíd rather be today

I can follow on my own
Or squeeze whiskey from a stone
But Iíll never be the one you like
Iím not the diplomatic type
Iíll never live up to the hype, I know

I stand beneath your window throwing stones


Castaways

It was quite a run we had
Full of second chances and keeping our hands to ourselves
It was just a couple weeks before that
Last drink, last time, or were you just being kind
`Cuz itís the same things this time that keep us misaligned

So Iím walking around, up and down in this sideways head of mine
I donít know what I expect to find
Different with one more trip to the same old well
If you got some insight by all means, tell

She donít like rainy days or guys that stay too long
When she first sent me away I tried to just be strong
So Iíll take my place in my own disgrace
With your other castaways

Thereís no message in the sand, no ring on your hand
Did it all go down as planned?

There ainít no talkiní sense
To a country girl with her head all full of things
That I just donít understand about
Asking forgiveness when youíve done nothing wrong
But Iíve been living with this for so, so long

She donít like rainy days or guys that stay too long
When she first sent me away I tried to just be strong
She donít like rainy days sheís been inside for too long
So Iíll take my place in my own disgrace
With your other castaways


Little Miss Awesome

I saw a picture of you standing outside your brand new house
With a smile on your face now tell me, whatís that about?
Thisíll probably lead to nothing, and thatís a long way back besides
But donít you ever wonder why it took us just a minute to say goodbye

Well itís nice to get a postcard from the sunny South
But did you ever stop to think that maybe Iím better off without
You laughing and your smiling and your funny little ways
Thatís a long way back, yeah funny, but the hold on my heart still stays

You saw it coming so you had to say it first
Spit `em out quick so it doesnít sound rehearsed
Your laughing and your smiling, itís been so many years
Little miss awesome I wish you were here

Remember when I walked you to your car?
I didnít know youíd be gone so long, or go so far
We stood there like thereís nothing wrong, like we didnít really care
We moved along and left our story there

Someday youíll come home to find me waiting by your door
Waking up that feeling you remember from before
Your laughing and your smiling, itís been so many years
Little miss awesome I wish you were here
Little miss awesome I wish you were here

You laughing and your smiling and your funny little ways
Little miss awesome I hope youíll let me stay


Wedding Day

Itís no interrogation and youíre not on trial
But did you whisper my name as you walked down that aisle
For just a moment did you think of me
Were you taken back to winter, `93

We were making up stories, we were making out
You were pretty sure but I had my doubts
We said goodbye, you said it really burned
But today it seems that the table has been turned

Did you think about me on your wedding day
Were you focused on the moment, not far away
Did you shed a little tear after all these years
As you threw away your bouquet
Did you think about me on your wedding day

You said I'm not the best singer but you liked my voice
Flaking out has always been my career of choice
Charming to the last, but at last weíll see
Whoís looking in from outside alone, and lonely

On the sidewalk outside your favorite bar
You said "Letís go to my house, we can take my car
I know itís cold but itís not that far."


Pizza Girl

Pizza girl, pizza girl, I never thought Iíd see there would come a day when youíd be serving food to me
Pizza girl, pizza girl I never thought youíd be down here rubbiní elbows with us lowly bourgeoisie

Remember back in homeroom when you were all frisky
But a girl who comes from money donít have time for guys like me
You boyfriend he took classes at the university
He had a job waitiní at his daddyís company

We all had you pegged for the lonely housewife gig
Squeezing out some babies for some rich suburban pig
Where did all those years go, what happened to those dreams?
But youíre lookin` real fine in that `ol apron and them jeans

Whyíd you stick around, what happened to your beau?
When we all couldnít wait to get away from all that snow
Would it be too much to ask you for a miserable hello?

Even though you smile and tease me when Iím home
I can tell youíd just as soon if I left you alone
When your schlepping pies and batting eyes at customers like me
Waiting for us all to leave so you can drink for free


Goddamn Thing

No one lies about being lonely, no one ever gets that far
Got your suitcase & your carry-all, now you're packing up your car
Go on back to Georgia, go back to mom and dad
Turn your back on every little Goddamn thing we had

Youíre pulling wool over their eyes but I can see just fine
Playing games of take-away `till there's nothing left that's mine
Go on back to Oregon, just see if I get mad
Giving up on every little Goddamn thing we had

Iím not waiting by the phone, Iím just sitting here alone
Go your way Iíll go mine, just tell `em Iím doing fine

Itís the same old story on different day, sorry I forgot to laugh
Just pass along my sentiments, say goodbye on my behalf

Go on back to Arkansas if you wanna see me mad
Throw away about every little Goddamn thing we had
Get back onto the mainland - Get off this lily pad
Leave behind you every little Goddamn thing we had
Go on back to Pittsburgh and take another stab
Forget about every little Goddamn thing we had


What Youíre Doing Today

Youíre leading me astray with the words you got, beating around the bush
I had something to say but decided not, I didnít want wanna push
You left me down in the bottoms
But I never fired back and I never went away

There was a time when we were cool and clear, and everything was not
Out there on the table, now everything is shot
Thereís some sorta line thatís been crossed
Now everythingís all messed up everything is lost

Iím not high Iím just distracted, I can explain the way I acted
But I gotta know what youíre doing today

Everybody knows that you had it so easy, everything to lose
It wasnít really fair and it never really is, when they finally make you choose
Weíre hanginí by the swings and your phone finally rings
You never looked back and you quietly walked away

I finally forgot your face but Iíve never been back to that place
And I gotta know what youíre doing today

Now we all sit back in our easy chairs and talk about those days
The memories fade as the years go by but the emptiness remains
Somebody said they saw you, but you never even asked
You never even said my name

He said "Why are you hung up on her?"
I canít believe you actually saw her!
And I gotta know what youíre doing today


Still Waiting Here

I never knew what a dump this was till you walked through the door
Spent the next 3 hours talkiní you in to having a couple more
From the light above the pool table to the tiles on the floor
And the way the juke box looks and sounds, like you never heard before

You see a mess you grab a sponge and get down on your knees
To you Iím just a carpet stain or a mangy dog with fleas
Iím just another project to keep you occupied
Youíre in control behind the wheel, I was just here for the ride

I couldnít wait for tomorrow to appear
The sound of your voice as it hit my ear
Iím waiting counting minutes as the seconds disappear
Now Iím still waiting here

A lesson learned is not forgot but lost in all this haze
And looking back Iím not too proud of my easy trusting ways
Another angel just walked through that lonely tavern door
Iíd tell you what happens next but youíve heard it before

I couldnít wait for tomorrow to appear
The sound of your voice as it hit my ear
Iím waiting counting minutes as the seconds disappear
Now Iím still waiting here


Partner In Crime

Our first date was a walk through the cemetery
We held hands as we fumbled through the dark
Pretty soon we moved up to lighthouses and abandoned old barns

In town all the talk down at the diner
And your mommaís friends all gettiní their hair done
Thatís two strikes and a black eye all against us, just trying to have fun

Thatís just the way things are done around here
But I donít listen anymore
Donít be afraid, Iíll never disappear
We got nothing to answer for

Their eyes burn a hole right through your dress
As youíre laying flowers on your daddyís grave
Theyíll tell you that they know whatís best, and you can still be saved

Thatís just the way things are done around here
But I donít listen anymore
Donít be afraid, donít you disappear
We got nothing to answer for

I hear them gasp I see them hold their breath
When youíre passing them on by
Donít feel betrayed by their testament
They were never on your side

You still fix your hair before you go out
You still get to church on time
Maybe itís time that you find yourself a new partner in crime

Thatís just the way things are done around here
But donít you listen anymore
Donít be afraid, donít you disappear
You got nothing to answer for


Wandering Eye

She stands on the sidelines with her eyes closed and her arms crossed
While I do what I want when I want, as I please
She used to laugh and tease about these goings on with her eyes closed
And her nose and hair up in the breeze

I just canít go on acting innocent, I donít know why I even try - my wandering eye

Her silence is unnerving as we take turns saying nothing
To each other for another long lonely day
She used to laugh and tease about these goings on but now I just
Wonder how long I have to stay

I just canít go on acting innocent, I donít know why I even try - my wandering eye

Maybe we should get away
Or maybe I should, and you can stay
This aint no lost and found, and I canít stop looking around
And I just canít wait another day

My silence is unnerving while I gather up what I got
Thatís not worth leaving behind or packing up
I know you might not see it now but this might just be good somehow
It might be your first taste of some good luck

I just canít go on acting innocent, I donít know why I even try - my wandering eye


Make Out King

Written by Ian Trumbull/Originally by The Deterants

A little rough around the edges
Born too smooth around the mouth
Youíre a weekend long legend
Turn around and spit you out
Heís the make-out king

Short on long term attention
Any commitment marked in chalk
Yeah they see right through him
But no one ever up and walks out
On the Make Out King

Now Johnnyís makiní fun
But wishiní he was the one the one
To never step out the same door twice
Like the Make Out King


Barely All the Time

I donít need a reminder that itís the end of Summer time
And if you ever find her, remember, she used to be mine

Iíd walk her home through the city
Through the leaves and the rain
Cold and wet but always pretty
She never once complained

You should take what you want sheíd always say
But she never let me get to her that way
If you see her tell her Iím doiní fine
And I barely think about her all the time

I donít get up much in the winter
But Iím not bothered by the cold
And though our group is getting thinner
Sheís still around, Iím told

You can take what you want sheíd always say
But it never worked for me quite that way
If you see her tell her Iím just fine
And I barely think about her all the time

Saw you last that night this past July
You might show up Iíd heard
Where you now, how you getting by?
Stood there chokiní on my words

You should take what you want sheíd always say
Looking back it mightíve seemed that way
If you see her tell her Iím just fine
And I barely think about her all the time

I donít need a reminder that itís the end of Summer time
And if you ever find her, remember, she used to be mine


You Owe Me A Heart

You owe me a heart I donít want a clean start
You said until the end but you let me down again
You owe me a heart

You owe me heart, couldnít keep us apart
In my Sunday best but you said I looked a mess
You owe me a heart

You owe me some time to get you off my mind
A parking lot kiss, opportunity missed
You owe me some time

You owe me some time, more than nickels and dimes
No debt deferred if you havenít heard
You owe me some time

Shaking knees, shaking lips, hey itís me again

You owe me a heart `till I get used to this part
I find it hard to believe that youíre not gonna leave
You owe me a heart

Shaking knees, shaking lips, hey itís me again


Night On The Town

Saturday night and Iím acting normal, Iím taking my baby out
Our destination and plans are informal but I just canít tell her about

All the things that Iíve done and theyíre just so shameful so Iím hiding my lying away
Every day Is a bit more painful Seems the only way

Put on my best and cleanest threads but I couldnít be more down
Weíll raise a glass to no regrets but theyíll eventually come around

All the things I had will be taken from me, all the lies Iíve told exposed
Any weight I feel bearing on me is all deserved I know

She said "Hey, are you alright?"
Well what are you asking for?
Arenít I mister cheerful anymore?

I might not be the life of the party youíre looking for
But I can lie as good as anyone for sure

Everything comes to an end, everything gives way
I canít hold out, I canít pretend. I got something I need to say

Letís walk it off, letís talk a while. Let me see your hand
Just this once Iím coming clean. I hope youíll understand



Ain't My House Anymore

Wasting away on the side of the road in a bar where we used to play
Counting the ways and the things I was told and the reasons you gave me to stay

I can live with the feeling that I made the worst mistake of my life
But I miss those windows and I miss that door
And it ainít my house anymore

Can I stop by for an hour or two, say hi to the dog and the kid
Why the sudden interest? Well, I don't know. When I lived here I never did

I could'a been a better man, it's true, but I coulda, shoulda, wish i woulda did
But I'm not here to answer for
`cuz it ainít my house anymore

Sure I get lonely sometimes but Iím not looking over my back
Chasing every dream that I ever had down and seeing how they stack
Against what I I left behind and what I had before
What I hoped to find and what I left you for

Settle up, 2 barstools down, nothing left for me in here
Maybe see you next time I'm in town, endeavor to persevere

I can live with this ringing in my ears and these voices in my head
But I miss that smile and I'm still real sore
`cuz it ainít my house anymore



Sidewalk Ends

The sidewalk ends at your house Iím rappiní on your door
The cat says youíre not home Iíve been alone before
When I saw it in your eyes underneath the streetlight
Iíve been alone before but it never feels right

Saw a photograph or two, your Sunday picnic dress
It never feels right when you force me to confess
Was it yesterday, last year or a memory ago
I say Iím feeling fine but Iím not even so so

Picking me a flower or throwing me a line
Will I get paid by the hour, will I get paid on time?

Now the days melt like ice in the bottom of my glass
But before I down my drink I hadnít time to ask
Hey whatícha doing here now with a bum like me
Iím locked out of your house but I know I hold the key



Last Time I Saw You Happy

Well Iím watching it snow inside my head
Making up words you never said
Iím waitiní for a kickback to bail me out
But it doesnít seem to matter what the secret's about

Well we watch the sunrise as we scrap and fight
About toilet seats and left on lights
It was under your breath as you were out the door
You just donít know if you can take it any more

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go

Saturday night we were out with friends
Making believe and playing pretend
You with yours and me with mine
Ok, I guess so, whatever, fine

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go

You find it hard to swallow all the bitter pills that I have dealt
It wonít be fine tomorrow Ďcause youíre feeling worse than youíve felt before - to the core

So weíre giving up, weíre getting off this boat
Weíre cashing out while it barely floats
It was your reaction, but the blame is mine
Ok, I guess so, whatever, fine

The last time I saw you happy was the last time I was sad
Youíd be better off without me even though I really canít let you go



Not Like You're Mine

It's not like you're mine to say what's on your mind until you tell me
It's not always fine to hang it on the line until you let me

It's not a good day to say you're going away like you never left me
Decisions were made and prices were paid in spades and debts were let free

Well I don't live in Boston I was there to see some friends
And I'm not from Chicago nut I get there when I can
But Minneapolis is alot more like my home
It's not like you're mine to keep me hangin' on

The passage of time has scarred over all the lines on the pages between us
Itís been a few days it's too early to raise the flag - I don't think anyone's seen us
It's not a journey but a stumble to the floor
And Iím in a hurry but they're asking me for more
And I can't wait another thirty seven years
It's not like you're mine and worth all of these tears

And yesterday it was fantastic, but I'm not living in the past
That nostalgia sticks to you like gum that's on your shoe
And everrything went by so fast

I spent my afternoons beneath a shady tree
You spent all yesterday waiting there for me
But I've moved on from there, at least that's what I say
It's not like you're mine to let you get away

I got more regrets than I can count or understand
It's not like you're mine to let go of your hand



Hallmark Holiday

Said "I love you" on a Hallmark Holiday
Couldnít do it in a roundabout way
Just look inside to see the things I could never say

At your window Iím steaminí up the glass
Iím just obsessed with being part of your past
Iíll take you back now all you gotta do is ask

I had you tailed and your cell phone bugged
I got inside and hid beneath your rug
I stole your lipstick off of your favorite mug

Changed your sheets on a Wednesday morning
Changed your number on a Thursday night
Said take a left but I really should have taken a right

I changed your tire and I mended your fence
Made sure to show up at all of your events
Youíre in my future but to you Iím strictly past tense

To shake it up I dressed up like a clown
And just for kicks I tried to put you back down
Snuck up behind you but you never even turned around

Changed your sheets on a Wednesday morning
Left on Thursday for an early flight
Said youíre sorry but that really doesnít make it all right

Fell in love on a Hallmark holiday
Ask me nice but Iíll never go away
Just look inside to see the things I could never say



Dead on Your Feet

Youíre always looking for tomorrow when itís barely afternoon
Youíve gotten pretty far though, you might just be there soon

You got grubs in your lawn and a head full of songs
And a book full of stories that youíll never want to read

You got your culture in the movies and your fashion on your block
Outside the passers by are all just flying with the flock

But you had stars in your eyes and a closet full of lies
That you were every bit excited just to go and leave behind
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pays you back in kind

Now youíre dead on your feet but you canít admit defeat
And youíre busy looking for another way
Now youíre dead on your feet but you were never on the street
Even though thatís what you always say

You got a picture perfect view but if they really knew
They might not be so fast to take you back into their living rooms

Thereís no sign on the wall saying catch you if you fall
Never give them anything to change what they assume
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pauses or resumes

Is this the turning of the tide
Or the same old free ride

Another Monday woke up and another weekend gone
A new day to remember a long forgotten song

Youíre always looking for some answers that you never seem to find
Out your bedroom window in a world thatís left you far behind
Is this the turning of the tide or the same old free ride
That never stops or lets you off or pays you back in kind



When September Passed Us By

Sheís an open book that needs reading twice
With an open ear for bad advice
Iím a sucker for a basket case
With an open wound and a pretty face

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

So together we were on our way
But it wasnít long before she said "hey,
This might come off a little tough
But your good intentions arenít quite enough"

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

Still buried down inside
Because we never really tried
When September passed us by

Makiní out in the parking lot
Now the last two weeks are shot
And we got something to pretend
When your parents think weíre studying

Well I really canít deny
That we were both a little high
When September passed us by

And I deserve another try
Because we never said goodbye
When September passed us by



Out Inside

Written by Randy Barrett and Jeremy Porter

Hey don't you know - That I was once an imbecile
It was quite a sight when we were up all night but we made it through

hey don't you know - I never even should'a tried
I dropped the pin when the ice got thin and I walked away as you let me in

Now I'm sittin in some club
Smokin' and tellin' lies
I guess my rep' is fried
I guess I'm out inside

Hey don't you know that you're the queen of Industry
You're stacked in black for the attack - and I'm on fire

Hey don't you know - there's more to this than camouflage
You'll chip a tooth if you tell the truth and you'll find more than you ever knew

They're all sitting in some room
Smokin' and tellin' lies
I guess my rep' is fried
I guess I'm out inside

Is that really your reaction or do you just need to vent
When we both know it was just for show but you ended up content
Dreams only last so long I guess I'll never wake again

I never even should'a tried
But I made it out alive
Now everybody's picking sides
And waiting for you to decide
Well I guess that's why I'm left out inside



The Turnaround

I'm in up to my feet in what's coming down the street
I got lost in yesterday

Empty chairs in empty rows and empty old mistakes
Whatís left to desecrate?

Hardly worth a second look
Hardly worth the toll it took
The turnaround's the hook
Whyíd you have to go that way?

I had to laugh during the aftermath
After a shower and a shave
I had to decide if I was wasting all my time
I wanted to leave but I chose to stay

Packin' up
For another go around
But at the bar I just talk it down

Singles Going steady
Double nickels on the dime
Maybe another time
I'm out of time

Hardly worth a second look
Hardly worth the toll it took
The turnaround's the hook
I hear itís all the rage

The turnaround's the hook
And I am not afraid



Hundred Bucks

What better place than the present to kick myself in the ass
Start makin' plans and shaking hands and gettin' somewhere fast
Time just crawls from under this rock when I got nowhere to go
It weighs so much when you're outta touch, gettin' nowhere slow

She said no offense to whiskey drinkers
I said none taken here
As long as you owe me a hundred bucks
You'll never disappear

I first took one for the team because I thought it might be fun
But after a couple dozen more I said God damn I'm done
A master plan from where I stand sounds just about the same
As lessons learned by taking turns at our favorite pinball game

She said pull yourself together boy
Stop crying in your beer
As long as you owe me a hundred bucks
You'll never disappear

She said wait a minute, started breaking down
But that's no way to keep me around
This is not the time to act that way
I'm the one who's messed up here
Let make this one perfectly clear
Save the drama for another day

Countin' up the friends I got and maybe some I don't
Then there's two or three I dream about ripping out their throats
But I've never been much good at math so it oughtta now make sense
I crawl back in when things get hot or a little too intense